And so i spruced up my blog a little to fine tune the overall appearance. 'Zhng' my blog, so to speak. Removed the 'Funeral Marching' midi 'cos it always goes spastic at the beginning. Drives me crazy. I guess i can be inclined as a perfectionist at times. Actually, i can see myself changing to another blogskin. Although i like the theme of this skin, it doesn't fully appeals to me. I definitely don't see myself using this skin long-term wise.
Oh yes, this is going to be hell-of-a long post, so please only read when you're tremendously bored, like when you're having attachment, this is the last blog on your list to visit, the television has got absolutely nothing of interest on, etc etc..
Otherwise, please bear with me. ありがと ございますた.
***
I would like to begin with this thought in mind:
When you observe the actions of those around you closely, you will know how much a friend they see you as. Think of it as, how they would rate you from 0 to 10, with 10 being the best anyone can get, and 0 being stay away from me. Simple details which might appear minute to some, i actually do process the information. Even though i may be wrong, but i'm going to say this anyway.
To be totally honest, i feel that i don't have a firm place in anybody at all. I mean, besides hh and huijia. I've always thought i've had more friends, and i'm sure even they themselves think they are a friend of mine. But the truth of the matter is, from where i see it, we are nothing but mere acquaintances. I feel i've always taken the 1st step to make fast friends. Then i realise, that's all the friends i am going to have, nothing beyond the facial stage.
You may know what i do. You may know what i study.
You may know my name.
But that's all there is, ain't it?
I mean, who out there can really step up to the plate and announce that he or she really knows me?
I've been told that i have to reach out to make friends beyond the present stage.
But hey, i don't feel needy. I don't need people at my beck and call whenever i'm having depression periods. It just sad to see how many people actually take the initiative. I don't even need one whole hand to count.
Of course, i may seem quite hypocritical about this too. On one hand, i always keep everything to myself, hardly ever do i share my inner thoughts with anyone. On the other, i'm lamenting and complaining that people don't take the 1st step towards me. I know, i get it. Something's always wrong with me anyway.
I do question myself too. Like, why, out of 390 contacts in my messenger, only a fraction still double clicks on me, albeit not frequently. Why bother with updating of ringtones and message alerts when nobody bothers to look for you anyway.
If i remove the drum lessons i'm giving. If i remove the performances i'm told to perform. What reason will anyone have to contact me? What for will people continue to have a social link with me?
And so i shall foresee. Friends i have now will forever be limited to acquaintances. Your so-called 'Hi-bye' friends, in lament terms. Condemned to a life of wondering around shopping malls, watching movies and eventually dying.. alone.
P.S. Please don't spend extra effort to talk to me, or invite me out after reading this. i would take it that you're pitying me. Also, it just won't be natural. If i can't have REAL friends, i rather have none at all.
***
Now that that's done, on with the blogging.
SCC Chalet III was okay, but new experience though. We had barbecue for both nights. That was interesting, 'cos the norm thing to happen for a chalet was to have one barbecue night only. There was also a wireless service provided by downtowneast, but the signal was from the lobby. So, being like almost the other end of the chalet, the signal strength was, needless to say, pathetic. Our chalet itself turned out to be a room-version. Picture any normal hotel room you've seen in you're life. That was it. That was our chalet. A toilet on the left of the door, a fridge slightly ahead, and at the end of the short corridor (i wouldn't even call it a corridor..), the area opened up to a television on a shelf and a queen size bed with two single mattresses at the bottom. Oh, and a sliding door at the end for the small balcony.
Lots of snaps taken for the 3 days. Almost 300 shots. The most out of any collection thus far. Evon was getting the photos from me when she inquired about the previous two chalet pictures. I was like, oh yeah, what happened to them? After awhile, i deduced that I had no access to the camera back at SCC Chalet I, and i had clean forgotten about bringing the camera to SCC Chalet II.
I didn't drink much during this chalet. What a letdown. I was hoping i could get wasted again. Another time perhaps..
Oh, and for the record, this is to zhiwei, evon and qiuyun:
I DIDN'T 'EMO' THIS TIME FOR THE DURATION OF THE CHALET !! Wuahahahahaaa ~
Came home on Sunday afternoon, around twelve-ish. Needless to say, i thumped on my bed and snoozed for the rest of the day, only waking up to have dinner(Salted fish fried rice, end up whole packet like half a salted fish also don't have) before continuing my siesta.
Monday, another one of those 'orh, okay whatever.' days. Basically, wake, sleep, wake, game, eat, web, eat, sleep.
Can't get any more simpler then that.
Oh yea, one of the website i randomly came across was the STOMP forums. I only went through the 'I Confess' section. Really cracked me up. There was this topic that went something like," What are the things people say to you that makes you angry"-or-something-like-that.
One of the poster went:
For those of you who is encountering this type of written pattern for the first time, it's called 'twit'. It's when you.. well.. the guy above already described it pretty much. I myself have seen girls typing like this, though thankfully, not all of them are as extreme as the poster above. There is only a certain level of 'twit' i can 'tahan' before going bonkers. But don't worry 'twiters' out there, it's relatively high. I'm a pretty tolerable guy.
But i have to ask this question. What for 'twit' your text? It might seem cute at first, sure, but don't you find it a hassle to type extra letters, and also remembering to capitalise some of them at random intervals?
I mean, even if comparing with Singlish
1) Hi, how is you? You got the thing for me or not? hahas..
2) hiEe, hOw ishH eUu?? Euu gOrt tHe thINg fOrr miEE oRR noRt? heExHeeX..(omg, i can't believe i actually typed that out..)
Which one would be less time comsuming to type out? Not to mention easier to comprehend. I can assure you, the 1st line will produce lesser head scratches, even though it's in Singlish.
If you want a good laugh, visit the STOMP forum. I'm too lazy to type out the link. So yeah, too bad.
Today was another one of my lonesome boring outdoors. You probably won't be interested about me going out alone anyway, so i'll bar the details.
- Went Plaza Singapura
- Nua-ed in arcade for like 2-3 hours
- Saw 七仔 everywhere
- Bumped into secondary school juniors
Oh, this you have to hear. There was three girls, two i knew and the third one i've seen before back in secondary school. Anyway, one of the girl's name was Candy Chua Xin Tian (literally, heart sweet). Her folks sure spent no expense at such a nice name for her.
That was about it i guess. Left the place somewhere after 6 p.m.. After reaching home for awhile, jia told me to go buy dinner with her. So i "Orhh-ed" and went along. Usual randomness along the way.
And now, here we are. Now, that wasn't so bad was it? Yeah, sure it was a long entry, but you've had nice music accompanying you along the way, courtesy or me.
Have a nice morning/day/afternoon/evening/night*!
* Circle one
Happy April's Fool mina-san.
***
The Nut within the Shell 101:
Fact #32:
I've never had a real first kiss before. Yeah, i know it's kind of random and 'off', but there's nothing else i can think of. I want to sleep already.
リオ
Oh yes, this is going to be hell-of-a long post, so please only read when you're tremendously bored, like when you're having attachment, this is the last blog on your list to visit, the television has got absolutely nothing of interest on, etc etc..
Otherwise, please bear with me. ありがと ございますた.
***
I would like to begin with this thought in mind:
When you observe the actions of those around you closely, you will know how much a friend they see you as. Think of it as, how they would rate you from 0 to 10, with 10 being the best anyone can get, and 0 being stay away from me. Simple details which might appear minute to some, i actually do process the information. Even though i may be wrong, but i'm going to say this anyway.
To be totally honest, i feel that i don't have a firm place in anybody at all. I mean, besides hh and huijia. I've always thought i've had more friends, and i'm sure even they themselves think they are a friend of mine. But the truth of the matter is, from where i see it, we are nothing but mere acquaintances. I feel i've always taken the 1st step to make fast friends. Then i realise, that's all the friends i am going to have, nothing beyond the facial stage.
You may know what i do. You may know what i study.
You may know my name.
But that's all there is, ain't it?
I mean, who out there can really step up to the plate and announce that he or she really knows me?
I've been told that i have to reach out to make friends beyond the present stage.
But hey, i don't feel needy. I don't need people at my beck and call whenever i'm having depression periods. It just sad to see how many people actually take the initiative. I don't even need one whole hand to count.
Of course, i may seem quite hypocritical about this too. On one hand, i always keep everything to myself, hardly ever do i share my inner thoughts with anyone. On the other, i'm lamenting and complaining that people don't take the 1st step towards me. I know, i get it. Something's always wrong with me anyway.
I do question myself too. Like, why, out of 390 contacts in my messenger, only a fraction still double clicks on me, albeit not frequently. Why bother with updating of ringtones and message alerts when nobody bothers to look for you anyway.
If i remove the drum lessons i'm giving. If i remove the performances i'm told to perform. What reason will anyone have to contact me? What for will people continue to have a social link with me?
And so i shall foresee. Friends i have now will forever be limited to acquaintances. Your so-called 'Hi-bye' friends, in lament terms. Condemned to a life of wondering around shopping malls, watching movies and eventually dying.. alone.
P.S. Please don't spend extra effort to talk to me, or invite me out after reading this. i would take it that you're pitying me. Also, it just won't be natural. If i can't have REAL friends, i rather have none at all.
***
Now that that's done, on with the blogging.
SCC Chalet III was okay, but new experience though. We had barbecue for both nights. That was interesting, 'cos the norm thing to happen for a chalet was to have one barbecue night only. There was also a wireless service provided by downtowneast, but the signal was from the lobby. So, being like almost the other end of the chalet, the signal strength was, needless to say, pathetic. Our chalet itself turned out to be a room-version. Picture any normal hotel room you've seen in you're life. That was it. That was our chalet. A toilet on the left of the door, a fridge slightly ahead, and at the end of the short corridor (i wouldn't even call it a corridor..), the area opened up to a television on a shelf and a queen size bed with two single mattresses at the bottom. Oh, and a sliding door at the end for the small balcony.
Lots of snaps taken for the 3 days. Almost 300 shots. The most out of any collection thus far. Evon was getting the photos from me when she inquired about the previous two chalet pictures. I was like, oh yeah, what happened to them? After awhile, i deduced that I had no access to the camera back at SCC Chalet I, and i had clean forgotten about bringing the camera to SCC Chalet II.
I didn't drink much during this chalet. What a letdown. I was hoping i could get wasted again. Another time perhaps..
Oh, and for the record, this is to zhiwei, evon and qiuyun:
I DIDN'T 'EMO' THIS TIME FOR THE DURATION OF THE CHALET !! Wuahahahahaaa ~
Came home on Sunday afternoon, around twelve-ish. Needless to say, i thumped on my bed and snoozed for the rest of the day, only waking up to have dinner(Salted fish fried rice, end up whole packet like half a salted fish also don't have) before continuing my siesta.
Monday, another one of those 'orh, okay whatever.' days. Basically, wake, sleep, wake, game, eat, web, eat, sleep.
Can't get any more simpler then that.
Oh yea, one of the website i randomly came across was the STOMP forums. I only went through the 'I Confess' section. Really cracked me up. There was this topic that went something like," What are the things people say to you that makes you angry"-or-something-like-that.
One of the poster went:
" personally, one of the hugest turn offs for me are those who mangle the
English language till it's incoherent. short forms and acronyms are fine. not
when they're written like this:
t0dAy HoR, mYy tHe lIfE iShhhH bErRi dE
SiaNZzz l0rrRrrxxxXx. miIiE luuUUrRRbbEs MieeE'S De LaaOoo GoNg!! *huuuUGs* I
RoOXxX wOrzz
ARGH! worse still if they talk like that. I can just
strangle people who talk/write like that. oh oh oh.. and those who act cute too!
give me a break, either you have the looks or you don't. those little annoying
actions won't make you look more kaAwaAiIii; in fact, you look more retarded (if
that's possible) doing them.
h0Pe uuuuu eNj0yEd miiiieee rAaanT w0rxxxx!
yAaay!!! "
For those of you who is encountering this type of written pattern for the first time, it's called 'twit'. It's when you.. well.. the guy above already described it pretty much. I myself have seen girls typing like this, though thankfully, not all of them are as extreme as the poster above. There is only a certain level of 'twit' i can 'tahan' before going bonkers. But don't worry 'twiters' out there, it's relatively high. I'm a pretty tolerable guy.
But i have to ask this question. What for 'twit' your text? It might seem cute at first, sure, but don't you find it a hassle to type extra letters, and also remembering to capitalise some of them at random intervals?
I mean, even if comparing with Singlish
1) Hi, how is you? You got the thing for me or not? hahas..
2) hiEe, hOw ishH eUu?? Euu gOrt tHe thINg fOrr miEE oRR noRt? heExHeeX..(omg, i can't believe i actually typed that out..)
Which one would be less time comsuming to type out? Not to mention easier to comprehend. I can assure you, the 1st line will produce lesser head scratches, even though it's in Singlish.
If you want a good laugh, visit the STOMP forum. I'm too lazy to type out the link. So yeah, too bad.
Today was another one of my lonesome boring outdoors. You probably won't be interested about me going out alone anyway, so i'll bar the details.
- Went Plaza Singapura
- Nua-ed in arcade for like 2-3 hours
- Saw 七仔 everywhere
- Bumped into secondary school juniors
Oh, this you have to hear. There was three girls, two i knew and the third one i've seen before back in secondary school. Anyway, one of the girl's name was Candy Chua Xin Tian (literally, heart sweet). Her folks sure spent no expense at such a nice name for her.
That was about it i guess. Left the place somewhere after 6 p.m.. After reaching home for awhile, jia told me to go buy dinner with her. So i "Orhh-ed" and went along. Usual randomness along the way.
And now, here we are. Now, that wasn't so bad was it? Yeah, sure it was a long entry, but you've had nice music accompanying you along the way, courtesy or me.
Have a nice morning/day/afternoon/evening/night*!
* Circle one
Happy April's Fool mina-san.
***
The Nut within the Shell 101:
Fact #32:
I've never had a real first kiss before. Yeah, i know it's kind of random and 'off', but there's nothing else i can think of. I want to sleep already.
リオ
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